I’ve found that the more I share my story with others, the less I feel ashamed of what happened to me. There is no reason for me to be ashamed because the fact that I was raped does not say anything about me. It was not something that I had anything to do with but rather something that was inflicted upon me. Of coarse, this is something I’m still trying to convince myself of.

Having the letter posted for others to see was something I really wanted to do, but felt really nervous about. I kept so much about that night bottled up inside me for so long, it felt really strange for it to all the sudden, be available for anyone to read. Now, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel like I can start to put the pain behind me and not allow it to consume me as much as it has been.

thank you for sharing.

I am so impressed with everything about this letter. Not only is it beautifully written, but it realizes, confronts and shares something that can oftentimes be easier to bury.

You are an inspiration.

On the less strong days, I remind myself that a scar fades with time and proper care. Sometimes, I even forget it is there. While it does remain a part of me, I am in control of how I perceive and wear it. And it sounds as though you are taking care and advantage of your scar, enjoying the fresh spring blossoms that much more and passing on your courage to others.

Thank you and may each day be less of a struggle, more of a breath of fresh air.

With strength and support,
Sheila

Thank you for sharing your story. Its been one year! You made it!

I’m also impressed by your clarity and courage – to speak your truth, defy, remember, share, and be yourself. One year after my assault, I was still in denial. Then I was terrified. Then I was ashamed.

You are inspiring.

Keep listening to your inner voice, and being clear about your self-worth and what you know your deserve.

Powerful time for you – this anniversary.
Thanks for sharing it here.

“The truth is that it is not my fault for having low self-worth; it is something that I have been taught by others throughout my life, including you. You took advantage of my vulnerability at a young age. You were 26 years old; you should have known better than to mess with the feelings of a (barely) 17-year-old virgin. You knew that I could be easily manipulated and that is why you sought after me in the first place. I gave up my virginity and sexual dignity so that you could have sex with me, someone who you could easily take advantage of.”

Thank you. This is so strong and brave. I wish you the best.

xo,
Carmen